I’ve done every quintessential “intern duty” possible. I’ve fetched for coffee all over Nashville, sought after organic juices all over Cannes, France, served sparkling water to powerful Hollywood producers and executives, printed and stapled scripts and forms, and gave my bosses’ in-laws a grand tour of Nashville. After three internships, I’ve picked up on the randomest skills and learned a bunch about the film industry, but I also have noticed myself feeling jaded and forgetting my roots. Wayfarer is my fourth internship, and I have to constantly remind myself to stay humble and be enthusiastic.
In the film and television industry, I’ve learned that it’s really easy to slip into a feeling of entitlement. I definitely wrestle with Hollywood, because with all the access that comes along with it, it’s hard not to get caught up in the glamour of it all. However, in order to keep myself grounded, early in my internship, I made it a goal to follow a morning ritual: every day when I drive down Sunset Boulevard and see the Hollywood sign, I reflect on how grateful I am and remind myself to make the most of my day at work [very cheesy, I know!]. However, after a month and half, it has become harder to follow through with my morning ritual. I noticed that I’ve fallen into a monotonous routine, and I’ve forgotten how lucky I am to have such an opportunity. I lost my sense of gratitude and started feeling bitter because I didn’t feel the same excitement as I did the first couple of weeks.
I am realizing now that my time here in LA is coming to an end, and I need to find value in every experience, no matter how big or how small, no matter how exciting or how dull the day is.
Of course, I will allow myself to feel down on some days, but I will not allow my own negativity to cloud an amazing and rare opportunity. Staying humble and being enthusiastic takes work. It’s not supposed to be easy, and I’m finally realizing that.