After around a month, I’ve settled in. My boss and I get along really well, and she’s really affirming so I am starting to feel good at my job. Most of the day, I write questionnaires, which are responses to policy and ideology questions that endorsement groups send to us. Endorsements are helpful because they get us voters, money, and/or volunteers, so they’re somewhat critical to an election. Then again, everything is kind of critical to an election. Except yard signs.
Since the questionnaires are about my candidate, when I write them I write from his perspective. “When I was” this, “I did” that. “My administration.” “My campaign.” “We do this.” I’ve gotten so used to inhabiting his mindset that sometimes when I leave comments on the documents, I make snafus like “did we really achieve this?” Me, my boss, and my candidate are one person, like a giant circus puppet: he moves the head, my boss moves the legs, and I try to make the arms look as pretty as possible.
Still, I wonder if that’s dangerous. I’m still trying to figure out how it could be. For the most part, it’s just funny. I think it’s a negative only if it becomes groupthink. But believe me, do I know our policy backward and forward at this point. I’ve considered it so often that there’s no way my acceptance of this is blind. Besides, I love the people on the campaign and my candidate too, but I’m very aware of the things that still make me uncomfortable.